Archive for October, 2008

Posted in Cinta Sejati, Coretan Harian on October 20, 2008 by sweetylittlebooboo

I tried to convince myself that i didn’t like you. i tried to pretend that my world wasn’t brighter when u were around. But, when im not talking with you for a day, my heart skipped those fateful beats. I knew I couldn’t lie to myself anymore that im falling in love with you already…:)

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Posted in Coretan Harian on October 15, 2008 by sweetylittlebooboo

I know this man from facebook, and he’s working and lived in Singapore, a very sweet and chomel guy that i’ve ever met. I’ve known him for a while now, and I’ve liked him. We been keep in touch thru handphone and YM. BUT! it was just recently my feelings towards him have grown more and more, he’ll pop into my mind out of no where, and I don’t want to make a mess of things like “mistakes” in the past…Somebody help me im extremely confused with my feeling cos afraid being hurt again. 😦

Posted in Coretan Harian on October 13, 2008 by sweetylittlebooboo

I have been so stressed out these past weeks with work disputes, event around the corners, my sickness, etc. I have bombarded my housemates with my never ending complaints on stress, that i decided tonight i needed to share my burden with someone else who also cares. So, very seldom, tonight i dialed my childhood bestfriend’s digits and made a long distance call to her. I felt good talking to my bestfriend. It felt like our old times. We both didn’t mind the complaints. I didn’t think she was being dramatic, or over-reacting. She was complaining to me about her thesis, and here i was doing the same thing but dengan my berlambak keje. I understood and felt that it was normal for her to have such feelings. That phone call made me feel better tonight. Athough this is the same friend who disapproves, and still asked me the same question tonight – dah ade bf blum?, It didn’t bother me. because although she disapproves and discourages me, in a lotta ways, she’s actually there for me. When it comes to other things, she always does know how to make me feel better. We hung up the phone, and i realise how much i miss her. In our school days, we would call each and every one of us everyday, as if time at school wasn’t enough. At the end of the phone call, having a bad day or not, we couldn’t wait to see each other the next day. I’ll cu tomorrow. I wish i could say that again.

Berfikir Sejenak

Posted in Coretan Harian on October 10, 2008 by sweetylittlebooboo

why are you so diiferent from the others…
why are you treating me like this…
why are you so kind, generous and everything to me…
what do i have to deserve such treatment…
what is in me that makes you the way you are towards me…
what do you know about myself to make me feel special..
who am I to be in such situation with you right now…
who am I to be in a relationship with you right now…
who am I….
is this really for real or am I just here for the time being…
or am I just to take someone’s place for the moment…
or am I just here for the sake of being here…
too many questions to ask yet you absolutely have no idea,,,
what I am thinking right now …
what I am feeling right now…
what I am wandering right now…
are you really for real or am I just here to be your puppet and clown… 😦

if you know what am i feeling right now, feel free to drop a line or two.

Berfikir Panjang

Posted in Coretan Harian on October 8, 2008 by sweetylittlebooboo

I have never been so indecisive in my entire life! I have been stuck in this dilemma for weeks now. The longer I wait, the higher the price climbs. I’m getting more confused, I should called him or not? When i read his messages in facebook…rase serba salah pun ada cos buat si dia macam tu? Tak baik kan? huhu…But after that, i asked my dad how to call Singapore? How stupid I am kan time tu? Sampai nak call Singapore pun tak tahu sedangkan my cousin ade aje kat sana…Nak call, tapi takut tak worth it. so how? hmm….

Then, I know 70% I have decided to call him during Raya…Later…..Now….hmm….Wink…Wink… *_*

Raya…Oh! Raya…

Posted in Kehidupan Ini, Memori on October 1, 2008 by sweetylittlebooboo

Yeah!! Yeah!!….

Raya tahun ni, im going back to Langkawi. My family semua balik raya sakan kat Langkawi except my 2nd lil bro tak dapat balik cos have to work on the 3rd Raya. My family been there for a few days dah tapi sedihnya dorang tak bagitau tetiba dah kat sana..it’s not fair laa!!..huhu…Whatever it is, im also going back to Langkawi but lambat sikit cos i have to settle my works first then boleh cuti panjang. Takpe janji akan balik juga kan?

Before that my girls and i dah plan out that we wanna meet our friend, kechik chomel who will be back to Malaysia for this Raya. She stayed in Dubai for a long time with her sister and we just keep in touch thru YM aje. I missed her and my others besties, Teh and Ijan. I love u all girls…mmuaahh…
But, semua tak menjadi sepertimana we planned cos everybody has their own commitments. So, i just lepaking with my friends sambil jalan-jalan kat Masjid India looking for Baju Kurung and Baju Melayu for my Family. I always bought them clothes during raya cos taknak susahkan menempah baju…hehe…Unfortunately, tak lama shopping dah hujan, so we just continued with our journey.

Arrived in Parit Buntar, we dropped off Fairuz, kesian dia tak boleh balik cos tiket dah habis. So, i tumpangkan sampai ke Perak, lagipun we used the same route and highway, tak salahkan? It’s what friends for, right?

After that, I continued my driving along the way to Langkawi and arrived in Perlis at late night…Huhu…I told my dad and he said “Jetty pun dah tutup mana ada lagi ferry nak jalan malam-malam buta ni sayang oii? Sedih pun ada, nak gelak pun ada. So, I spent a nite in the hotel nearby cos malu nak tido umah sedara sendiri. Tulah, tak bergaul dengan saudara sendiri, ini lah padahnya! Early morning, I leave my car at my uncle’s house and we take ferry to the Langkawi but fuoohh jetty packed with peoples. Sampai aje my Tok Wan’s house, tido sampai tak sedarkan diri. Yelah drive all the way from JB to Jetty Kuala Perlis so tiring bayangkan lah it’s takes about 10 hours nak sampai. U try lah! 🙂

Malam raya semua saudara datang rumah Tok Wan having BBQ and satays with my Paksu’s friends. Ramai betul that night melepak kat rumah Tok Wan. After that, mestilah saya bermain bunga api bersama adik-adik sedara tapi saya yang lebih-lebih mengalahkan budak kecik…:) But, whatever i should enjoying myself during my Raya and Holidays in Langkawi so me tak pedulikan itu semua.

Pagi raya bangun agak lewat mana taknye tidur pun dah nak subuh. 🙂 Macam mana pun, semua orang tak kisah dengan perangai me cos dah paham sangat dah. Seperti biasa di pagi raya, sekeluarga pergi masjid sembahyang Hari Raya, afterwards bersalam-salaman antara satu sama lain. Me pun tak lepas bersalam-salaman dan minta maaf dari keluarga tercinta saya. 🙂 Hmm..bagi budak-budak kecik pulak, semua beratur nak duit raya. And for me, now dah keje so me pun bagilah semua adik-adik sedara duit raya. I feel great terasa macam seronok je bagi duit raya tapi me tetap minta duit raya from my aunts and uncles. Buat muka tak malu…:) We all take some photos as memories in Raya 2008. Then, makan bersama-sama dengan juadah hari raya seperti rendang, ketupat nasi and pulut, ayam masaalah ~ one of my favs, kuih raya, lontong, etc. Wah! tak larat nak makan sebenarnya…kekenyangan!

Walau bagaimanapun, di kesempatan ini saya ingin Mengucapkan Selamat Hari Raya kepada Semua Yang Tersayang, Maaf Zahir dan Batin dari Ekin Sekeluarga. 🙂