Kasih Ibu

On mother’s day, I saw no point on swiping the credit card and buying her a present. I know a lotta ppl would argue, it doesn’t matter, all that counts is the thought, even if it means it’s literally her money that you’re using to pay off her present. Well, I still took the point where all that matters is the thought. I know my mother hasn’t be happy much since the whole confrontation 2 years ago, so on mother’s day, I wanted to assure her that it’s not her fault. First, my mother is a beautiful mother and has raised me and my brothers well enough. I think she has done a beautiful job in raising and making her children great individuals. Regardless of what the society may think, what I turned out to be (it’s really not anything just that the society makes it seem bad), is not the effect of my mother’s bad raising skills. I am not a product of a broken family or psychotic childhood, I honestly, honestly, come from a pretty normal family. This is a decision made by choice and definitely not an act of rebelling. It’s not fair to judge and accuse the parents for the children being. Besides, in my defense, there is nothing wrong with me, to have my Mom blamed for anything anyway. Me and my mother may have our differences, and may even continue having so, but it doesn’t change the fact that my mother is a beautiful mother, and I would never trade her for anyone else.

Main Tarik-tarik Tali

Wanita Oh Wanita…

I’ve noticed something about girls, no matter how smart, how independent, how strong, how feminist, they’re still gentle and soft in certain ways. I also noticed this in most of my friends, that they like the chase. And the drama. Secretly, I think they do, even if they tell me they don’t. Is it for the attention? Or for the validation? As I write, I am speaking for myself. I am just like my girls, which makes it easier for me to understand girls, and write here to make the beaus understand.

The beaus usually come to me for assurance. My guy friends think it’s hard to understand girls. I tell them, even the girls themselves can’t understand their girlfriends, so you should give yourself some credit if you cope. The thing with girls is that, yes, they may be hard to understand, but only at first. After a while, you can see a pattern, and the occurrence are more or less the same.

Girls say one thing and mean the other. How are you supposed to know what they mean? I tell my friend, that it takes time. And over time, you will.

I, on the other hand, don’t like to keep it to myself. I like to make it known that I tengah merajuk. Some girls have to wait awhile to cool off. Some girls like to be coaxed on the spot. This too, is something that you learn along the way.

How fast is too fast? How slow is too slow? No one has the answer to this, but yourself and your partner. I don’t think it’s correct to put a time rule in a relationship. Like, how long do you wait till your next relationship? Or how long is it okay to grieve over a broken relationship? Or how long until you pop the question? There’s no wrong or right. It depends on both partners. The confidence, and the certainty.

So, if a girl tells you, she doesn’t like you, does it really mean so? Not necessarily. Some girls just like the chase. Some girls like to play the chase before the relationship, some while in it. Some just don’t bother. But how do you know? Time will tell. But I was so kesian with this one friend, and wanted the save the trouble. So, I slipped the secret, yes, she likes you. She just wants the chase. She wants to know if you like her the same. She wants you to want her.

I tell my friend, you’ve got nothing to lose. You’re not wasting your time. She just wants to test you. So, layankan jela keperempuanan dia. Tak lama pun. Kalau lama, I can slap some senses into her face. My one friend, Aril is a confusing case though. Aril doesn’t like chasing girls. Aril’s relationship with the current girlfriend started through an acquaintance in Steven’s. And that night, they got together. That fast????? You must question. But, amazingly, they last until today, which is almost a year now. Before this, Aril told me that he doesn’t like girls who are easy to get. They tend to bore him. But, that doesn’t explain the lasting relationship Aril has now with the girlfriend.

Some people like the chasing game, while others don’t. Some play along because they love that much and think it’s worth it. Some just couldn’t be bothered with the drama and walk out. It depends. There is no wrong or right. Some try to resolve it, when they think it’s too much. There’s always a solution to every drama and issue. It depends on how much you want to make it work.

My friends ask me how do you know it’s worth it? You follow your gut feeling. But, what if it can’t work? What if you bore yourself while you do? Well, if you think it’s not worth it anymore and you’re out of solutions, no one’s forcing you to stay.

Main tarik-tarik tali can be thrilling, tapi jangan sampai terputus. But if it snaps, it only means it was never meant to be.

“Berlari aku mengejari
Damainya cinta kasihmu ini
Berdua kita menyelami dasar cinta”

This song lingers on my mind as I write this post. Sweet, sweet song.

Kenangan Cinta

Never love a love that hurts…
Never hurt a love that loves !!!
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Kenangan yang pahit lebih bermakna dari mimpi yang indah….
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Kenangan itu kadangkala teramat pahit untuk diredah, tetapi ia terlalu manis untuk dikenang. Hidup tak selalunya indah tapi yang indah itu tetap hidup dalam kenangan. Andainya hadirnya cinta sekadar untuk mengecewakan, lebih baik cinta itu tak pernah hadir. Kecewa bercinta bukan bermakna dunia sudah berakhir. Masa depan yang cerah berdasarkan pada masa lalu yang telah dilupakan. Hidup ini indah jika kita tahu menghargainya. ..Tapi ia amat menyakitkan andai kita melaluinya sambil lewa… moga akan kembali ceria kehidupannya nanti…

Kadangkala Cinta Menyakitkan Namun Tetap Masih Indah

I have been hiding this love for a long time cos I thought love is a terrible crime. So I didn’t talk about it everybody cos I was afraid to admit it. Even he didn’t feel me, It was the love that I kept secretly In my heart. But hiding this secret one more day Is very hard to me. When I used to hear his name, I could feel my heart beats, red becomes the color of cheeks. And I was so shy, to tell him “I love you”…But it was seen in my eye that my love was unsolved clue. Owh Gosh, he was the only one in my mind and he was totally different than mankind. He was the hero of my dreams. For him, I have been writing lot. I wrote love themes about him, and I thought I could be the one that shall be his queen and share life with him. But, they were just sweet dreams, they were fake thoughts and gleams, they faded one after another in the air going away, to nowhere and it because he is already found her. The one that will be his love Fay and the shiny flare of his way. While my own love was about to decay…I feel sad about it…hurt deep inside my heart. I have always dreamed he may be mine and with me he shall stay forever and for always. But I am not the one nor for him or anyone…How lucky she is, she is the one, the queen of his heart, she has won!!!…I shall love no more…Love killed my heart in the core…Love will be a feeling I ignore because love hurts forever and for always…

Tiada Yang Sempurna Dalam Cinta

When one is surrounded by love, the feeling of excitement fades away, and one tends to ignore the true love that lies in between the peace and dullness. Love shows up in all forms, even very small and cheeky forms, it has never been a model, it could be the most dull and boring form……flowers, and romantic moments are only used and appear on the surface of the relationship. Under all this, the pillar of true love stands……and that’s our life. Love, not words win arguments…

Sometimes we expect far too much of the people around us, and because no one can ever live up to those expectations, we are almost always disappointed. Wouldn’t it be better if we just let go, and let people be who they are? Then we’d be able to see them as they are with all their beauty and goodness in which we take joy, and with all their faults which we can also see in ourselves. When we have put someone up on a pedestal, sculpturing them to fit our needs and desires by smoothing out the rough edges and creating new curves here and there, we cannot see the real person underneath our work. All we see is the illusion we have created. That is denying the person’s real identity and is disrespectful. It’s much better for our friends and for ourselves if we drop our expectations and illusions, and and accept them all just the way they are. Whether we realize it or not, everyone we know is very special to us. The most important thing to remember is…Always appreciate the friends that you have. A fight may come and go very easily, but a friendship could last forever. The people who make a difference in your life are not the ones with the most credentials, the most money, or the most awards. They are the ones that care. Love u all my dear friends and someone out there….mmuaaahhh…..

My Smile

Many say that i smile a lot. Here’s a secret to my smile…My smile would hardly be the smile of happiness but it is a smile of loneliness. So much that i smile, so much that i hide my pain and sorrows, my knowing of what is happening or going to happen next. My smile hides a 1000 secrets of my heart…nothing to be smiling about when all the things are breaking apart..so much that i smile, i do not wish to smile at all..

Coretan SweetyLittleBoo_boo

Drama hidup Sweetylittleboo_boo bermula di sini…

I built my own blog to keep my friends posted on my life and of course to let my heart out…But this time, it was due to drama and my own lifes with full of dramas…haha…Actually, i just want a space to keep my friends and loved one updated and share my life here in Malaysia and i’ll try to keep this blog regularly updated this time. But for today, i’ll start by posting my older writings which i’ve been abandoned for a long times and not posted in my friendster and facebook…